Let me begin this blog by first expressing how thankful I am to everyone who has been so supportive these last few weeks. Through friends I’ve seen around town, through Facebook, and even on Twitter, people have been so encouraging. I’m the type of person who constantly needs the verbal reassurance from peers in order to feel confident in their work. So thanks to all of you who have left me comments here on the blog, chatted with me on Facebook, sent me lovely “@’s” on Twitter, and shared your hearts with me at work (Starbucks) and elsewhere.
Now that’s said, allow me to update you a bit on our (mine and George’s) situation.
We are selling my car, busted head gasket and all, in hopes to get a least something for its worth in parts. I can’t drive the car, so George and I are still sharing the ‘Rola. However, it’s been emotionally difficult since I’ve been forced to work mornings exclusively at Starbucks so that George can have access to the car exclusively for going to work at night. And with him having summer school during the middle of the day, this leaves little to no time of seeing each other at all. Even when George returns home in the evening, I’m usually already asleep because I have to be up for work at the ugliest crack of 4:00am!
Additionally—as if it could get any worse—my attempts to “step down” at work have failed. The word from bureaucratic Starbucks is that they are “hiring a different type of person” and therefore, the position in which I’ve been placed is the one I must remain or I won’t have a position. It’s not that I can’t handle the position but rather, a means to make our current situation easier. Since George and I both work for Starbucks, if we were both “baristas”, we could work together at the same store, thereby eliminating George’s commute.
But those efforts have officially been shot (pulverized, strangled, whathaveyou). So where does that leave us?
I’m really not sure. At this point, I am so at odds with the company I once loved that I want to throw all caution to the wind and hope that I can take pictures and that miraculously, it will sustain us! But it’s a giant leap of faith and I’m not sure if I’ve got the timing right.
I guess I’m at a crossroads and I’m not sure if I’m supposed to continue down one path, go down the other, or stop and examine the map for a while before even making a turn.
Regardless of what happens, I know I’m supposed to take pictures. It’s a feeling I never quite experienced before. And I’m so thankful to God for allowing me to be a creative person. I know He’s taking me somewhere. I just hope these circumstances are resolved soon. Or at the very least, relieved in some way or another.
But you wanna see something exciting?? It’s my first REAL print order. I am SO in love with this series!
You’re just fantabulous. You just are.
Love you, friend! Praying for you and your situation. I know it isn’t easy on you.
I know that by pouring your heart into photography will bring you great joy! God has an awesome way of providing 🙂